Hey Freddie Girl...Mommie here. I'm here and YOU are not here. I miss you sooooo much. I know you are still here with me in spirit...that will NEVER go away, but I miss the YOU that I can hold and smell and give belly rubs to. I miss seeing that sweet little face first thing in the morning especially. I love how you would wake up and lay your little head on the bed and stare at me until I would get up to take you out. If that didn't work then you would make the cutest little panting noise hoping that would get me up, and if THAT didn't work you would take your little paw and scratch the bed ever so lightly as if you were saying "excuse me". Sometimes that would take a few times, getting a little firmer with your paw, and your little "excuse me" turned into a BIG "EXCUSE ME"!!!! You were a smart cookie, you did what you had to do, but you were nice about it.
I miss the excitement in your eyes with the anticipation of your meatballs that you got with your food every day. Oh, such happiness! I miss the "kerplop" sound you made when you laid down on the hardwood floors, and the little "clickety" noise your toenails made when you walked around the house. I miss how you would be lying down on the floor, but when you saw me your little tail would just wag off. I know sometimes I didn't sound too happy about having to take you out to do your business in the middle of the night when it was very cold, and I'm sorry about that. I would give anything to have those moments back.
I think what I miss the most is the "connection" that you and I had. I honestly felt like our brains were somehow attached to each other's. You were my best friend and we had that connection with our eyes, the look we would give each other when we heard a creepy noise, like we were both saying "what was that!", or if we just thought somebody was acting loud or silly we would give each other that look that only friends give each other. You "GOT ME" when it felt like nobody else in the world did.
I'm sorry for all the times I left you home alone for awhile. I'm sorry for the times I didn't really know what you wanted and just told you to go lay down, and you did because you were perfect. I'm sorry for all the times you thought I was "yanking your head off" with your chain when you were trying to eat things you found on the ground...like cigarette butts. Really, Freddie Girl, I thought I was going to have to "put you on the patch". I was just looking out for your well being because I love you so much. But, being a dog, I'm sure that took a lot of the fun out of things for you. I miss riding in the elevator with you, and playing with all your toys, and cuddling with you, and taking you on trips and staying in the Hampton Inn with you, and singing "woo, woo, woo" with you. I JUST MISS YOU!
I got to meet so many nice people, and made so many nice new friends that I wouldn't have if I didn't have you. Everybody had to stop and tell you, and me, how pretty you were. I am a much better person because of you, Freddie Girl.
It is very lonely without you...I talk to you all the time because I do feel like your soul is still here with me. But, just so people won't think I'm crazy, would you mind if I get a little fish or something to keep me company? Maybe just one, and I could name it Abe Vigoda, or Les Nesman or something like that. Or MAYBE I could name it George Clooney....what do you think? Just know that I could never replace you...there will never be another Freddie Girl. You will always hold the MOST special place in my heart, but maybe one day you will find a little brother or sister that might need for me to take care of them. Whenever we find each other....remember they can NEVER take away ANY of my love for you.
Okay, Okay, I'm about done now, so we can get on with telling your stories. Freddie Girl, I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU more than you could ever know, but I'm pretty sure you had a WONDERFUL and HAPPY life, and MY WORLD was a much better place with YOU in it. I learned a lot from you and I hope that I can always remember and put to use everything you taught me. YOU are, and always will be THE BEST, Freddie Girl.
Now, when we left off from Freddie Girl's story...Freddie was still at Dr. Josh's trying to come to grips with why she had the cone on her head, and she was thinking somebody shaved all her hair off............to be continued soon (hopefully by tonight or tomorrow morning)......